Upcoming Events
Fri October 2
Author Event Blauvelt Free Library
5:30
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6:30PM
541 Western Hwy S Blauvelt, NY 10913
Event Details
Fri October 2
Author Event Blauvelt Free Library
We Invite you to Blauvelt Free Library to hear from author Eileen Bellew and learn more about her story and memoir After John Jumped.
5:30
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6:30PM
541 Western Hwy S Blauvelt, NY 10913
Sat October 17
Pearl River Day
10AM
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5PM
Central Ave, Pearl River, NY 10965
Event Details
Sat October 17
Pearl River Day
Stop by and get your book signed
10AM
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5PM
Central Ave, Pearl River, NY 10965
Sat November 7
Book Presentation at Tappan Public Library
1PM
93 Main St, Tappan, NY 10983
Event Details
Sat November 7
Book Presentation at Tappan Public Library
We invite you to Tappan Public Library to hear from author Eileen Bellew and learn more about her story and memoir After John Jumped.
1PM
93 Main St, Tappan, NY 10983
Sat November 7
Pearl River Project Graduation Vendor Fair
1-4PM
275 E Central Ave, Pearl River, NY 10965
Event Details
Sat November 7
Pearl River Project Graduation Vendor Fair
Come shop for early Holiday presents at Pearl River High School.
We will wrap your book for you!
1-4PM
275 E Central Ave, Pearl River, NY 10965
Sun November 8
LARC Local Author Fair
2-4PM
Haverstraw Library 85 Main Street, Haverstraw, NY
Event Details
Sun November 8
LARC Local Author Fair
We invite you to join us at the Haverstraw Public Library
2-4PM
Haverstraw Library 85 Main Street, Haverstraw, NY
“Deeply personal book, with so many lessons to take away from the read. So much sadness in this story, yet you found joy through grief and showed the positive lessons to be learned from trauma.”
Annika Pergament from NY 1 Spectrum
I never expected my life to split into Before and After John jumped.
When my husband, FDNY firefighter John Bellew, was forced to jump from a burning building on Black Sunday in the Bronx, January 23, 2005, I was left at 35 years old to raise our four young children alone while navigating a grief I couldn't fathom and an anxiety I couldn’t control. Eventually, the headlines ended. The ceremonies ended. But the fear didn’t.What followed wasn’t just loss — it was hypervigilance, panic attacks, guilt, and the exhausting mental gymnastics of trying to keep my children safe in a world that no longer felt predictable. I tried to outthink tragedy. I tried to prepare for every possible danger. (If you’ve ever rehearsed fire drills with your kids, we might be kindred spirits.) I tried to be strong — even when I was unraveling.This book isn’t just about surviving loss. It’s about parenting through anxiety, learning to seek help, and eventually finding the courage to risk love again — knowing full well what it costs to lose it. Sometimes heavy, occasionally funny, and very honest, if you’ve ever had your world change in an instant — or loved someone enough to be afraid of losing them — this story is for you.
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